Monday, October 24, 2005


haha i juz realised tat i haven been blogging for awhile..n all my frens who started their blogs later den me are like having more entries den me liao..haha well..im getting lazy le..so 4 those hu r "fans" of my blog..haha may not have anymore entries SOON..haha

anw..the weekend is over, yet again..y does time pass so fast during weekends?hai..maybe tats coz im happy during the weekends..not tat im not during the weekdays..but well..the happiness i feel during sat/sun is diff from wad i feel on the other days..haha n the reason is so obvious tat i dunwan to type it out..=) so happy this weekend..coz we din quarrel!!haha so long since we have a "quarrel-less" time together..4 consecutively 2days!!haha maybe coz my pms is over..n my "aunty visit" me liao loh..haha but den..oh man..im having such bad cramps..esp today..hai..even now..my goodness!!=( haha but tat din spoil my mood!!coz im so happy tat he is finally out..w me!!yeah!!

well..we watched 3movies within 2 weekends ah..last wk we watched "40 year old virgin" n this week "april snow" and "deuce biggalow"..haha "april snow" was a show i had been waiting for since like very long ago loh..but noe wad?!its a very disappointing show man..hai..pls do not go n watch it..its waste of $..waste of time..n no storyline..n well..i can juz go on and on..even my dear korean bf has to admit tat the korean show sucked..haha normally he will go all the way to defend anything regarding korea..haha (damn patriotic!!duno he serving ns 4 wad..haha muz be for me..haha thick skin again!=) )so u all should noe how bad the show is loh..haha so angry loh..argh..din expect it to be this lousy show..it was like every scene stop for 5mins..n there is juz like minimal movements..argh..lets not talk bout it..haha

tat was yesterday..today we watched "deuce biggalow" ah..it was rather funny..in a very..n i stress on the word "VERY", sexual related..very gross loh..but any show is better den "april snow" man..should haf heed my fren lok wah's advise on not watching it..regret!!haha not much storyline too..well..jaehee says "40yr old" was the best la..so maybe tats the movie u all wan to catch to relax?hmm not sure..k..tats bout it for the movie critics..

actually, really nothing much to blog about la..hai..recently feel damn stressed..maybe the exams are nearing loh..cant believe it..the finals are like so near..n im still like catching up w the work..not even revising..hai..i regret taking chinese..really damn regret..u all muz b thinking im out of my mind to go take chinese..haha but then, as i explained to alot of ppl..i need to clear "3 baskets" of subjects in order to graduate..so i tot "introduction to chinese language" seems ok..(sounds easy hor..) haha + my chinese grades not v lousy ma..(having in my mindset tat only singaporeans are allowed to take..) so y not?n noe wad?i went into my 1st lec to see like almost 3/4 of the lec filled w bloody prcs..argh!!!goodness..n the stuff tat they teach in nus is like their pri sch/sec sch standard?wadeva it is..they learnt b4..n they noe the stuff damn well..n me?im like super struggling..felt like giving up during my last chinese tutorial on fri..i almost cried in class can?hai..can imagine how depressed i was?1) we havent even been taught in lecture the stuff tat we did in tutorial..how r we suppose to noe?!but noe wad?the teacher said "oo..den ur tutorial time not good loh..cant help u all.."bloodyhell helpful hor..n she went w the speed of a train?no..aeroplane?no..rocket?!haha u get wad i mean..n when we, the singaporeans(obviously the blurest/slowest in class) ask her Q..she looked at us as though we were asking alien qns..argh!!!she only likes to entertain those who are at her speed(which is practically the whole class except us..so u noe how many prcs are there..) n i juz totally give up like halfway through the lesson..i couldnt take it anymore..i din understand a single shit she said..n when my fren ask her repeat..she say "i have already explained" #!!!$!$%% n the best thing is..there is like 20% of class participation points..n i think i get 0 loh..coz the bloody smart assh*les in my class will ans all the qns..while we only noe how to ask..so the good will have even better grades..n we the bad, will have even more rotten grades..woohoo..understand y i so angry + depressed?!i think this type of course should ban the prcs loh..hai..=( its juz so not fair..!!!(did i mention tat the "smarties" suck?!)oo..1 more thing..those stupid, o, i mean "smartass" are so damn selfish too!they refuse to teach u..n they give u the "you are so damn stupid n brainless n shit" attitude..hate them..condemn them man!!!

o well..i was doing my maths tutorial..n i realised i duno how to do..once again in a depression mode..coz all along my maths is like alright 1 loh..n now..i cant do it..dun even understand..hai..duno how m i suppose to go 4 exams man..so so so dead!!!=( hai..luckily got my new found fren in maths tutorial class..haha mayb can ask him 4 help..he is another smart guy(note: i din use smartass here, coz the term is reserved for the damned people) haha hopefully he can guide me and help me pull up my grades ba..crossing my fingers though..coz i dunwan trouble others so much la..dunwan others to find me irritating and all..

hmm..tues is the last social work tutorial..last time i'll be seeing my tutorial mates(not tat i will miss them anw) haha n i so wanted to prepare for the class..but then..i need look for duno wad policy stuff la..n im lazy to do it..haha mayb tml loh..see how..btw..the sw tutorial oso haf class participation point 1..so stupid this nus system..hai..its so unfair loh..those talkative 1 obviously will stand out more right..n since im not, i repeat, im not, the talkative type..i confirm flunk this area of marking 1 loh..haha well..let it be la..i can only haf the mindset tat studies arent everything in our lives..to console myself loh..i have to admit tat im not immune to getting bad grades in nus yet..unlike in tjc..but well..i guess i'll be immune soon ba..i hope..if not i will be in depression like all the time..hai..my dear keep urging me to find some motivation to be happy n cheerful in sch..but how is tat possible?when so many disgusting people are ard?hai..so unlike my sec sch/jc life..where i haf a group of frens..who will stand by and support me when i break down..in nus..i feel tat im alone..except mayb chinru, vivien, jingkai..hai..chinru is the 1 im most dependent on now..haha rem jk told me during lunch 1day tat it's not good to be dependent on others..but den..im lidat..haha i need others to support me..i'll like walking on this super not balanced road, whereby if there is no1 to support me when i fall, i'll just roll off and die..haha i feel tat im approaching "death" soon..hai..

well..i've been like in the "going to be sick" situation for damn long liao..finally, i think the germs won my body's immune system..coz im like really falling sick le..every morning will be the worst time of the day..whereby my nose will be blocked and i'll be sneezing like hell..n will like use 1whole box of tissue to stop my nose from dripping..hai..i hope i'll just fall sick..so i can officially get away from my workload for a valid reason..hai..so tired of everything..i often wonder wad the hell m i doing in this world?everyday we are just living the same way..go to sch..study..get stressed..get sick..eat..rest..play games(this is for jk..=) )..n time will just pass by lidat..do we ever stop to think "wait, wad m i here for?wad m i making myself so busy for?to get good results?to get a 1st class honors?etc." mayb its coz we r just too comfortable in singapore..there is no natural disasters tat have strike singapore yet(im not saying i wan something to occur in singapore!!) just tat..sometimes we wun realise our priority until something happens to us..something tat will change our lives forever..imagine those homeless in pakistan..wad is their priority?searching for their lost family members?finding a new home to settle down?while we?living in our comfort zone..the only thing we are bothered about is our studies.."wah..stress..others get such gd grades..wah..i have to meet deadlines..wah..cant finish my homeworks..wah..tests are coming..etc." im oso 1 of those who are in this trap..but i think sometimes when we are tired..we should stop..n think.."wad on earth m i here for?" when u realise there are other things other than studies in ur life..u wun be so stress..=) for 1 thing, as a christian, i believe tat god created us all for a unique purpose for each of us..different people will go through different lives..no1 is identical to others..so bring out christ in wadeva gifts/lives he has given us..(i cant type in caps for my entries duno y..thus i can type the "c/h" in "christ/him" in caps..) n remember to thank him for wadeva he has put us through..=) its hard..coz things tat we face may not b good things..but think of it in another way..like he's training our patience or wad loh..life will be much brighter if we think of things this way..!!=)

i have to admit im not a very good christian..but well..im still learning..n hopefully through wad i learnt, i can spread the gospel to all my frens..especially my darling jaehee..n of coz my goodgood frens..chinru, shanti and all..i noe in my heart tat if i write this n if u all read this u all may not b happy..but yah..this is wad i hope lah..coz u all are close to my heart..n i wan u all to be saved la..=) hope u all understand loh..

k la..i wan go rest le..in summary.."studies are not the only important things in our lives..wad we r doing/living in this world is.."so yah..n 1 last thing to remember from this entry is tat "i love all of u..n tat 11th nov is coming!!!=)"

*goodness..i miss jaehee liao..haha and he has just booked in..anw..nxt wk is his 1wk block leave..haha happy!!coz he gg brunei for overseas training during november..for 16days!!!sad!!wad m i gg do man..=( n he wun b able to celebrate my bday w me..hai..so lonely..so frens..do remember 11thnov is my bday!!=) actually oso good la..den i wun haf any distraction from studies..and by the time he comes back..i'll be done/almost done w my exams liao..den i can really go celebrate my liberation w him!!niteeeee!!!*

11th november is a friday btw..=)


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