Saturday, October 15, 2005


hello..here i m blogging again..wonder hu is actually reading my entries..feel abit stupid like writing to no1 and no1 reads..hai..im feeling down today..quite down..oh well..i duno y too..maybe pms..maybe my mood is ruined by my boyfriend again..hai..as i mentioned..he booked out only ard midnight..n he juz booked in..thats y im free to blog now..i spent my day w him..n at 1st it was all well..went eat lunch den watched a movie..den after the movie..my mood turned bad..hai..y?hmm..i oso duno..maybe coz its 330pm n he has to go home coz he need to eat dinner w his family at 5pm..so he could reach the camp by 730pm..n like i say b4..i juz miss him..keep feeling tat the time we spent tog is so short..n when i suggested gg hm..he happily agreed..but then, wad i was actually thinking is that i could go his hse n do my work (i already brought my sw stuff w me) but guys juz dun understand females la..when we females say no, we mean yes..haha or issit juz me?haha i expect him to noe wad im thinking and wad i actually wanted..but no..he juz din get it..but he realised that my mood changed..n keep bugging me to tell him wad happened..n i refused to tell him coz i wanted him to, u noe, make a guess?n so he continued bugging me n in the process i got even more irritated..haha so stupid right?wasting previous time together bickering once again..oo..i 4got to mention that i asked if i could eat dinner w him at his hse..n he never say yes/no..juz say he has to eat at 5pm..den they eating spicy pork tonite etc etc. n i juz get the feeling that he doesnt wan me to appear..oh well..he nv take initiative nvm..but he still sort of "rejected" me!!!so naturally i was abit disappointed..n sad..n abit angry..coz things r not gg the way that i planned..n i hate things not gg my way!!!haha abit stubborn u could say..but well..im the queen since today is the 15th!!haha n i was angry coz if he dun eat w me..i would haf to eat dinner alone..on a saturday night..argh..

in the end..we took 10 to his hse..n sat at the busstop in silence..coz i noe its damn disrespectful if we quarelled in his hse where his parents are..so we better settle things b4 we go in..n for the 1st few minutes..he was trying to coax me n all..but i din feel better..den think he got frustrated from the coaxing n raised his voice abit..n den i got even more pissed..n told him my feelings..well..den things were still quite bad..we stayed at the busstop till 530pm..quarelled for a whole 2hours can..hai..when we could haf spent the time doing sth better..i always say this to him.."lets not fight and waste time the nxt time u bk out"..but it juz seems to be occuring again n again..hai..eventually..we headed towards his hse..n he noticing i was still kind of moody..he gave me a tight bear hug in the middle of nowhere..haha!!yeah!!felt much better after tat..haha i juz love his hugs..they make me feel safe inside his arms..haha obviously i cried..haha n when we reached his hse..think his mother noticed tat i was sniffing..n he came out w this excuse that i was allergic to sth loh..haha den ate dinner at his hse..me n him alone coz his other family members all think its too early for dinner i guess..i love the food his mom makes..they are really tasty n delicious!!!not to 4get..spicy..haha nowadays i seem to be able to take abit more spice than be4..maybe thats y there is a mini pimple explosion at my forehead there..haha n we left at 630pm loh..his dad drove me to tanah merah station b4 they continued on...

my mood got bad again..coz once i alighted..i miss him again..haha abit extreme la can say..like juz 1sec ago i was w him..n 1sec later im saying i miss him..haha im those v sticky kind of person..v dependent on him..n im already considered more independent den b4 liao..after i went uni..haha his parents once told him we were overdoing it..coz like we juz parted den he will start msging me..haha but well..think they got used to it liao..haha n so i got hm..feeling abit depressed..coz of feeling of regret of wasting time + i miss him..haha its always after u sort of "lose" the person/thing that u start to realise his/its importance..i told myself i wun quarrel w him the nxt time he bk out again..haha but lets see bout tat!!

anw..think he went to see the schedule once he reached the stupid army camp coz he msg me to tell me this coming wk is gg be damn bad 4 him..got 2outfields in a wk!!!bloody hell loh..think the stupid camp dun think they are humans but machines/superman loh..every wk lidat..fieldcamp=tough physical work + brain work + lack of Zzz..having 1 is already torturous!!!n now this wk got 2..wonder how he's gg to take it..hai..so poorthing..both me n him..haha this means im gg to be damn lonely this wk..no call/msg from him on most of the days..hai..n he's gg to suffer so much physically..hopefully he'll be able to hold on..n bk out this coming wkend..hai..if not im gg to b lonely even during the wkend..argh!!!

oo..there are like ants all over my hse..i duno y..the ants juz built nests all over my hse!!!n i juz killed 3..on my table..think there is a nest somewhere in my room too..so irritating!!does any1 noe how to get rid of all the ants?!well...i think thats bout it 4 today la..really gtg do my sw term paper liao..damn lag..haha but really duno wad to write..+ i juz noe we haf a 2nd assignment 4 chinese which is due this coming wed..+ i juz noe my test score for "living w maths"..n its kind of depressing..hai..so..overall..my mood is damn bad today..argh...yup..hopefully i can make it through uni..hai..=(

p.s. 1) dear chinru..pls take care of ur throat..n get well soon!!n jiayou for ur essays!!=)
2) dear suet..pls take care of ur stomach k??n gimme some hint on wad to get u for ur birthday laaaaa k!!!!see u tml at church!!!=)


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