Friday, October 14, 2005


my 2nd blog since i started..quite alot happened today ah..hmm..wonder where i should start..anw..today im the pianist 4 CVCF ah..damn stressed loh..coz u all should noe how superb my piano skills are..i mean, if you are good in something, you wont be stressed about it 1 loh..the thing is im so good that i was damn troubled..hai..i noe its serving Him..but i really wish i could do it in another method..something tat im better at..something tat i haf more confidence in..something that i will feel good and tat will be glorifying Him!but anw, i had to go along w it loh..so early in the morning,(ok la..not v early la..1030am..)went to have a combine practise w the worship leader JieYi..n the guitarist Yitsin..n well..u all should be able to guess how the practise went 4 me la..haha the thing is, both JieYi n I are 1st timers in leading, n although she was kinda worried, she was still better den me..hai..i felt damn depressed as i noe that the ppl will laugh at me..they already did last wk when i asked them how many flats/sharps does C major has..n when i told jaehee bout it..he said "n they call themselves christians?" hmm..he made a point there..n i duno how i can react..maybe u all can help..=)

so after the practise, we went for lecture loh..i duno if i couldnt concentrate coz my mind was on the piano-playing session later, or issit im stupid, i couldnt understand the whole lecture..i look around me and i realise some people are zzz..muz be too easy 4 them!!n these are the people taking the same freaking exam w me on the 25th nov!!i juz think that our sch ppl are disgusting..they are super smart, and super hardworking, and super kiasu, and super selfish!!i really wonder why..i mean, most of them should be from jc juz like we did..i once remember some1 telling me we wun be able to make true frens in uni..n now i kinda understand..but if every1 is from jc, shouldnt they act like how they do in jc?n in jc u can be true frens w them and when they come uni, they juz change?cant be wad..so y cant i seem to clique w so many of them?hai..haha disgressed so much from the lecture i was toking bout..so anw..i dun understand a single thing bout wad he said loh..n i really couldnt be bothered la..n at this time..my bestest bestest fren emily dear msged me a really nice, and mushy msg..haha to let me noe that im important to her though we in diff schs..n that msg really brightened up my day..i mean, i noe i can at least count on her when things go wrong..n i noe 4 sure she will be by my side..
P.S to em if u r reading..thank u!!i love u!!=)

well..had lunch w my lunch partner Jingkai as usual[jk wore slippers today too!!stop copying me!!=)], and i asked Kit to come and join us..hmm..i felt tat i shouldnt haf asked Kit along after he arrived coz he became this weird person..kinda regret my decision loh..haha i noe this is abit mean..but i mean..he is not gg to see this..n i need a place to vent my frustration..4 those hu duno hu kit is..he is my "buddy" during the cac camp..den we continued toking after the camp and became quite close..n out of a sudden, he started to avoid me duno 4 wad..n now he became this distant guy hu i dun even noe if i can call a fren..n i was really quite pissed about the msg he sent me..it goes sth like this..
me: "wan join me and jk 4 lunch?at arts?"
kit: "u walk ard the canteen and see if can find me loh..if u see me den im here, if not den im not"
@#@#!##^$%$^#$@!
bloodyhell!!!wads this man!as if im begging him to come and join us 4 lunch!!!n this was not the 1st time it happened loh..got 1 time we suppose meet 4 dinner at arts..w jk of coz..den i call him to tell him i cant find him..den he ask me walk ard the canteen den can see liao..den i went round the whole canteen n still cant find him..so i called him again..n guess wad?!he is not in the canteen!!!ARGH!!%$@!#@ i seriously dun think this is v funny loh..stupid!!!

well, enuff bout toking bout him..but b4 i stop, he seemed to b wearing some eyeliner + green eyeshadow today..or he was kana boxed at his eye socket there..wadever..dun really give a damn coz he irritated me so..jk asked me not to be over-sensitive, but i haf a limit to this kinda nonsense..if he wan to act like this, so be it..i dun care!!

ooo..anw, thanks to my other bestbest fren chinru dear hu helped me bring my shoes!!haha i went back to pgp yest, juz to realise tat i din bring my shoes along..n i duno how match my clothes w slippers loh..haha juz feel very uncomfortable walking around in slippers..im not saying that wearing slippers is not good(so those hu wear slippers out, dun be offended!) im juz saying its not my style la..haha so thanks my dear!i appreciate ur help lots!love u too!!=)

hmm..i came back to my room in the afternoon to try and do sth to my blog and i realise im so new to this tat i noe nuts about it..can any1 pls gimme ideas on how to beautify my blog, or even add stuff or wad??im soo totally helpless at this..tat i gave up after awhile to get my afternoon nap..haha im like soo damn slack!!i oso duno y..i juz dunhaf the motivation to study anymore..its not like i haf nothing to do..i haf tons to do..juz that i haf no mood..ppl pls encourage me to study..if not i will just be lidat everyday...!!haha

well..thats basically all for today ba..its such a windy/rainy day..good day to zzz!!haha but i need to do work..haf to hand up my social work term paper on mon..n im not even 1/4 done..so so dead..but i juz dunhaf mood to do..n im so zzzpy already..haha i successfully played the piano at cvcf..n i noe how horrible it is..so chinru..r ur lessons still on??=) haha need all the help i can get..dunwan to be stressed up over this kinda thing again..haha

oo...its 14october2005 already!!its my 14months anniversary w jaehee..hu haven even call me yet..hmm..wonder if he's zzz or still outfield..well..i miss him..but this few days i cant tok to him coz my phone bill exploded..n since my parents duno bout the existence of him..my dad will be bugging me bout the phone bill..so i juz stopped calling him in pgp..which im in now..haha tml is friday..he told me he'll be booking out tml..hopefully he really gets released tml..coz im dying to see him!!haha but im sure we'll quarrel again once we meet..haha how ironic!but im determined to keep our anniversary peaceful..haha he's the king during our anni, n on other times(which is every other days), im the queen..haha so i let him get his way during the special occassion..therefore, more often den not we wun quarrel loh..haha wonder wad present to get 4 him..like very long nv get him anything le..haha thinking of fossil watches..which cost a bomb..so any more practical n cheaper presents?

k laa..i need go rush my social work term paper already..will blog again soon i hope..its abit time consuming thought..dun really think i'll do this everyday..maybe 4 the 1st few days..wadever..tataaaaa :)


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