Friday, March 31, 2006
after almost 2wks of coughing n sore-throating, im finally on the road of recovery..thank God..and thanks for ur concern for me(if you had..haa) as exams are really nearing..needless to say..the doctors at YIH suck like totally..not only the med they prescribe is USELESS..they charge me for sth mehmeh got for free..n yes..im VERY SORE about it!!!pay nvm leh..muz get better wad..-_-"
anw..tis is gg to b a v long entry..so skip it if u wan..its juz tat there are like quite alot of thoughts in my mind now..n i need to let go of them..haa so bear w me if u wan to read on!=D
tis wk is finally over..heavenly maths proj has been handed up..n well..at 1st i tot it was like super nice..but on tat day when all the projs are to b handed up..i felt tat ours paled in comparison..+ ours were not in-depth..n i started to fret..but still..at least its over..stats test on wed is like..argh..i got wrong again..n im like the worst among my frens AGAIN..=( its not a matter of being competitive anot..its juz feeling like "argh" coz its careless again..hai..lets not tok bout it..n on tat dreadful nite..ritchie added on by presenting to me the apparent great news tat im the nxt vice-chairperson of yishun wonderkids..i almost puked..like..WAD?!more bout tis feeling later..thurs MA1505 tut was hell..i was totally stumped at the tut..not knowing how to even start the Q..n yes..exam is juz in 20days..*cries*..had my qet presentation today..n the quiz which tommy n i had(ok la..i was the 1 hu got the Qs for the quiz), was like completely WRONG..stupid la..got the resources fr a website for grammar editting n its wrong..like wth loh..but the teacher said we did an excellent job!feels good to b praised after so long..=) den facilitate for yishun today..as usual..im bad..so yah..o0o..AND..i got rejected for hostel!!so im pgp-less nxt sem on!!
hmm..i guess im slipping back into depression once again..i duno la..hai..but well..as my msn nick says.."i feel stupid..no..i AM stupid.." tats exactly how im feeling now..i feel like the dumbest among my frens..its like..no matter how hard i try..im still the worst..tats precisely the point..i AM stupid..thus hardwork does not help my grades..i guess the trigger for tis tot is the stats test ba..i noe my dear jaehee keep asking me not to compare..try my best den can le..but is trying my best enough to stay in this competitive environment in nus?i think 1day i'll really go crazy..haa n this'll happen b4 i graduate..
about being the nxt vice-chairperson of yishun wonderkids..im really not prepared..i seriously dun think i haf wad it takes to b a leader..n i feel tat joanne should haf been the vice instead..i mean..in terms of being w kids n experience..she is definitely better den me..n thinking about the past positions tat i haf..tis is like the most top position...i have been a....
1) prefect (pri sch)
2) class treasurer (sec 2)
3) maths/chem rep[cant rem] (sec 3-4)
4) maths rep (jc1/2)
5) secretary (church)
6) asst sop leader (sec 3-4)
7) vice chair of slack comm tjchoir (jc1/2) hahaha chinru is the chair btw...
haa cant think of anymore le..limited..so tis is like the most top position loh..n im doubting my ability to assist mr pres..hai..stress man..i doubt i'll b up to others' expectation of me..=(
the term is ending..and as i was saying..exams is in 20days..tis equates to 4days per mod max if u r taking 5 mods..n im taking 6..so yah..less than 4days..hai..y issit tat when im juz starting to get comfortable w my bz 5day wk schedule, i.e) haf time to do my tut b4 the lesson etc, tat the term is ending n exams r coming?y issit tat when im juz trying to catch up on my work tat, "hey! tut is not all u need to do now..u need to revise!"?y issit tat when im juz sort of starting to njoy pgp-life coz of mayi, xinyi n shaowei tat we r all pgp-less now?y issit tat when i love my current situation/environment now tat everytime muz change?i DUN like changes..i like the fact tat im taking 3same mods as feifeiren(vivien)as tis gives us alot of time tog..i totally got to noe her like tis sem..n i can safely say we became damn damn close..[vien: dun u dare say otherwise!!haa] staying over at each other's place, even though it was only 1nite at each was like totally fun..i love all my psy frens..namely, mehmeh, vien, zhenwei, irene, wenhui, xinyu..n i noe tat its tis grp of frens hu will walk me thr my uni life..(all psy majors ma..) i love all my mods frens!
my qet teacher used to condemn me..haa ok la..she still does condemn me..but to a smaller extent..coz i was ALWAYS late..the latest i went to her class was like 1230 when the class starts at 12..haa when she comments..its always directed to me..like "pls finish off ur food quickly" n i was the only 1 eating.."pls dun b late, we got alot of things to do"..obvious tis is directed at me..yada yada..but somehow..as the sem is ending..im beginning to miss all this..mayb coz im starting to like qet??haa tats like IMPOSSIBLE..but mayb coz she praised me today!haha
lectures/tuts r all ending..somehow even those tutors hu used to irritate me alot seem not as irritating now..n i noe i definitely will miss my MA1505 lec..coz he's fr hk mah..n he1 got2 an2 hong1kong1 ac1cent3 ah1..haa the no. r the tones like for han yu pin yin..if u noe wad i mean..e lame jokes tat the st1131 lec always crack..even lamer jokes by the socio lec..the interesting stuff n "hello??" by the heavenly maths lec..erm..my psy lec..chua fook kee?hmm..sorry..cant think of anything to miss him about..haa except mayb his usage of his saliva n finger to clean off his mistakes in transparencies?!?!haa
pgp!!o..the room tat i used to hate now became my love..haa haf been staying there fr sun-fri almost every wk tis sem..n since im pgp-less nxt sem..im gg to love it even more now..haa mayb stay EVERYDAY!!!haa nonsense..but well..yah..i'll miss it too la..
time flies..n soon we r yr 2s..my goodness..i dun even look like a nus student n im gg b yr 2 soon..-_-" i dunwan!i wan to b a freshie!!!haa think tis is wad i wanted to blog out la..gg zzz le..tml need to mug again..cant wait for exams to b over...how ironic..haa
my 3 favourite children in yishun wonderkids
the yishun wonderkids committee
my heavenly maths proj mates
good luck to all!!study hard!!=)
*p.s: part of my entry somehow got lost in the process of publishing and i haf tried to put in wad was lost..but the feeling was not the same as before?n so the text may not b as fluent..sorry!
