Tuesday, May 02, 2006


Emily's 4 distorted theories
1) A movie bout Jesus having a girlfriend is COOL!!
2) Homosexualism is INBORN..
3) The couple in the recent "popular" gay blog is SWEET...
4) Flowers ARE meant to be..PLUCKED...
...and she is a catholic....-_-"

anw..exams r over!!!haa finally..after such a long draggin semester...the exams r over!!=D but somehow..i dun feel as happy as i anticipated as i would..its weird how humans work..when we cant get/do sth..its e most precious..n we WANT it..like during exams..we WANT to watch tv..we WANT to go n play..we WANT to zzz..we WANT to shop..we WANT to do tis n tat..everything we WANT..coz we noe in our hearts we r not supposed to do tat..n in every1 of us..tis is juz tis rebellious self..wanting to do things we r not supposed to..coz..its exciting!!wad good is sth tat juz delivers itself to ur hands?like now..after exams..u can do all the WANTS above..n do u do it?no..coz suddenly..u feel like u r too lazy to do such stuff..u feel like wads the excitement bout gg to shop n all?spore is so boring!!nothing nice on tv..ever wonders y the tv seems more interesting during the exam period?coz its sort of like "forbiddened"..tats us..tats humans..n tats wads happening to me now..suddenly..i juz feel lethargic..a part of me wan to go back to b4 exams..haa at least i feel like a useful person den..w my brain BURSTING W KNOWLEDGE..haa having an aim everyday(reaching it anot is another issue)..life now feels aimless..everyday..i dunhaf anything to look 4ward to..haa coz im a LONER..no1 asks me out!!*cries*..haa but humans work reversely too..when we noe all tis is gg to end..like when the hols is ending..our rebellious self will start to surface again..suddenly..all our WANTS will b on our wants list again..we want to do tis again..but well..sch starts n we dunhaf e time..tats wad makes the WANTS seem interesting again..n e cycle will repeat..when will humans learn to treasure wad they haf?

toking about "forbidden" and rebellious..it reminds me of a "popular" gay blog recently..i will not mention its url here as i dun wish to further "promote" them n make them feel oh-so-proud of themselves..though i believe alot of u will haf already known..actually..tis is y em came up w her theories..n shocked faith n me out of our..erm..bodies..haa duno wads the appropriate term to use la..1stly, they r NOT sweet..at all!!!which part of them calling each other "darlinz/dear 1 million times in like half a millions sentence, meaning like 2 darlinz in 1 sentence" is sweet?!?!esp when they r both guys!?*pukez*

*pukez again* moreover..they r like only 17 or wad loh..n they go ard telling people.."o..im gay!!" wad happens to their future?actually..tis is 1 point tat faith brought up n it is my mindset too..here goes..normally..gays will say.."hey..its not my fault tat im gay..i have been gay all along!!since young..i've been interested in guys loh..so it's in my genes.." n is tat so?!NO!!i totally disagree w tat loh..n em agrees..so tada!!her "homosexuals r inborn theory" is born!!wad kinda nonsense n rubbish is tat?!inborn my ***!!!i believe normally gays r those hu liked gers b4..n mayb coz of their looks or wadeva..kana rejected by them too many times..n decided tat they dunwan b hurt by the opposite sex again..n thus turn to their same sex friends for comfort..n coz their same sex frens seem so caring n concerned bout them..unlike the gers hu dumped them..they decided tat.."wow..guys r nicer to me..i think i like them.."n they seek comfort from each other..thinking tat they r "in love"..coz the care n concern is there..the guys can provide them w wad the gers apparently cant..they can stay over at each other's hse, go same toilet, play guys' games tog n yada yada..so good!!!n tada..they proclaim.."we r gays..dun despise us leh..we r oso humans..we r in love w each other too..hor darlin.." -_-" n they start thinkin back..yah hor..last time i find tis guy A handsome leh..guy B too!!but y did ur brains did selective forgetting?how bout the GIRLS tat u find pretty?the GIRLS tat u date?wad u trying do?to persuade urself n others tat.."u r born a gay..." whether tis is true or not..u noe in ur heart loh..i juz hope tat they wun continue to ruin their reputation thr the blog loh..hai..still young la..

hmm..duno if i'll get condemned by their fans anot..haa but i dun really care..juz saying wad im feeling inside ba..although i feel tat my faith is weakening..i still believe tat homosexuality is wrong..my fellow brothers n sisters in Christ..pls help me build up my faith again..tis sem has not been a good 1 for my faith..too many mods/books/programmes have talked about the topic on religion..n it somehow attacks my faith..hai..i need to get close to God again..i WANT to..but i seem not to haf the heart to do it..i noe tat if i wan to..God will lead me..but i need some1 to get me started..haa confusing?anw..tis wk is "secret bible week" on the National Geographic Channel ah..its quite scary tat they found the "Gospel of Judas" n sort of pronounced it as a real thing..on such a renowned channel..i wonder how the others r takin it..even me being a Christian is shakened by it..i juz hope the others r takin it better den me i guess..i really do pray for tat to happen.......


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